I've spent this week mostly by myself. So much lately, I've felt desperate for company, lonely and wistful. And mostly not just any company, but a particular kind, which I had for a while and can't have now. I spent a lot of time feeling angry about that, and muddled.
This week has been different. I'm trying to be alone and feel OK about it. Or not even trying, really, just being. And it feels a little boring, but not gut-wrenchingly awful.
I've retreated for a bit, pulling inside myself, creating a soap bubble around myself. It's temporary and will pop soon, but it's something I had to do for myself. Take a break from the complexities and uncontrollable things I've been struggling with so much. I was tired, and I needed a nap.
Posted by thevieve at August 15, 2008 10:09 AM