Sometimes I wish I could bitch-slap people and tell them, "Do this! Not that! Are you fucking stupid?!" And then they would do what I said, and everything would be OK.
(And sometimes I wish that would work with me, but I'm pretty sure it wouldn't, even if people tried, which they don't for the most part, because they are smarter than me and know better.)
I think that's why I'm attracted to people who kind of need that. Even though they can't hear me, and usually I can't even tell them, because I know it's sort of pointless, or at least know it would cause a rift or a fight, which I can't bear. (I'm not as dumb as I think, really.) Instead, I try to insinuate myself, and my caring, and my sometimes high-handed advice, and hope it works.
I just want to help. It doesn't, though, and it breaks my heart every time.
I'm rambling, though, and can't see this very clearly. Blah blah blah.
Posted by thevieve at August 7, 2008 7:52 PMI refer to that pattern as baby-bird syndrome. You seem to have a mild case, fortunately.
Posted by: Aaron Weber on August 8, 2008 9:20 AM