I am grumpy this week, which takes a lot of energy, and I hit the end of my reserves last night. I was tired of trying, tired of organizing, but also bored and lonely. I wanted to do something, sort of, but didn't want to make the effort. "Let them come to me!" I thought, in a nasty, snarly way.
When I feel like this, when I have things to say but haven't, when they've been gnawing at me and poisoning my brain and my gut, when I feel like no one gives a shit, when I'm in "nobody likes me everybody hates me I'm going to go eat worms 'cause I suck" mode, I like to formulate tests. Super secret tests that no one knows about and that absolutely everyone fails.
Because people CAN'T READ MY FUCKING MIND. Duh.
So, really, everyone fails my tests, but I'm the one who loses. And I felt like a loser last night, and I still feel like one today.
Posted by thevieve at October 26, 2007 9:09 AMIf you have friends who care about you, you are never a loser. and I think you do have friends who care about you.
Posted by: John on October 27, 2007 12:25 PM