A pattern is emerging regarding my insomnia. Every Sunday night (or Monday morning, really) for the past three weeks, I've woken up at 3 a.m. This week was not as bad -- I got back to sleep by 4 a.m. instead of 5 or 5:30 -- but I'm curious why this happens. I tend to catch up on sleep over the weekend, and then my body decides it doesn't need any more at 3 a.m. or so? All of the psychic bullshit that's built up over the previous week reaches its climax in my poor, addled, compulsive little brain? I really don't know. But I know this: that shit's annoying.
I'm recognizing other patterns, equally annoying but more subtle and emotional and complicated. It's hard to know whether I should break them or just live with them. Breaking them might also break a tender lovely thing that I'm not so sure I want to give up. It's hard to know. But I think I should figure it out before I break myself.
Posted by thevieve at October 16, 2006 8:46 AMDo you worry about the week ahead on Sunday nights?
Posted by: Aaron on October 16, 2006 3:35 PMtender lovely thing = meth habit?
Posted by: cromulent on October 16, 2006 5:34 PMIt's possible that I worry about the week ahead. I think it's probably a combination of things, though. We'll see what happens next week.
And no, smart-ass, no meth habit. Yet. :-P
Posted by: Vieve on October 16, 2006 6:33 PM