August 30, 2006
Past
I've been spending a fair amount of time over the past couple of days looking at pictures from a handful of years ago. Parties I went to in 2001 and 2002, with pictures of Greg and the beach on the Cape and the hippie commune in New Hampshire and friends and acquaintances I hardly see anymore. It's making me feel a little sad and strange -- it wasn't all that long ago, but it feels like another lifetime.
I guess a new important person coming into my life is what has sparked it, this remembering. We moved in the same orbit around that time, but never met, at least not that I can remember. But we know so many of the same people, and have these pseudo-shared memories, and it's a strange feeling. This almost-sharing-but-not-quite. And I'm not sure why I'm thinking about it so much.
So I have this weird stuck-in-the-past haze that's surrounding me, and I'm having a hard time focusing on the present and the future right now. It makes my head hurt, but maybe it's just something I need to do right now, thinking back to the good and not so good, to shore up my plans and desires. Looking back to find my way forward.
New Hampshire, 2001
Posted by thevieve at August 30, 2006 11:08 AMI know what you mean when you get caught up in the past.. I do that all the time, sometimes it haunts me. I look at pictures of a different life, most recently my first two years of college when nothing mattered and I was a few pounds lighter.. hehehehe I really loved that pic you sent me.. Thank you for thinking of me.. *hugs*
Posted by: moonshine on August 30, 2006 11:46 AM