My head is very full today. Jumblywumbly. It's uncomfortable, and the resurgence of allergies and perhaps one too many beers last night are both adding to the effect.
I always have lots of things in my head, but only sometimes does the pressure build to where it's irritating and utterly distracting. Today is one of those days. There are things that are bothering me, things I want to know, things I just want to talk about, but I can't talk about them with the right person. Haven't really ever been able to, come to think of it. I've tried, but it's like talking to a tilty brick wall, both blank and inscrutable and threatening to topple over and smoosh me. A precarious position. It's frustrating, and it adds to the pressure. But there's nothing to be done about it. Sometimes these things just are what they are. Very bothersome.
So I have all of this kinetic energy whizzing around in my head, little bits pinging around. Trapped with no place to go.
Posted by thevieve at July 26, 2006 12:44 PMI call it "interconnectedness overload". But the tilty brick wall analogy is brilliant.
Sometimes, when I try to communicate something like that, and my attempts are unsuccessful, I take a different approach—usually a more direct one (unless that's the one that went nowhere). But sometimes the person I'm talking to just isn't capable of understanding, or—more often and more disconcerting—I'm just not able to communicate the thought in a way they can understand.
And that's when I turn on the Science Channel and let the idiot box take over.
Posted by: David on August 2, 2006 2:26 PM