I realize I spend a lot of time trying to figure out the motivation for other people's behavior. This is difficult to do, because there are so many variables, and you never have access to all of them. Sometimes, with the disengaged and reticent, you don't have access to any of them. This frustrates and confounds me. I always want to know Why? Why why why?
I don't expect people to be completely open books; lord knows that would be a fucking mess. Some insight would be nice, though. But maybe it's there, and I just don't want to see it. I guess that's the case sometimes. But I also think sometimes it's just a big mystery. It makes me a little crazy.
Maybe I should just ignore it and try to go about my merry (or not-so-merry) way. Maybe I should just stop trying to figure it out. But I don't think I can. I live in this world, with other people and their emotions and mine, and they are inextricable and unavoidable, even when we try to push them away, and the whys are an important part of that. Curiosity killed the vieve.
Posted by thevieve at June 11, 2006 4:43 PMSome of it is knowable, some of it is not, some of it should be known, some of it should not. Balance is difficult. :-/
Posted by: Aaron Weber on June 12, 2006 10:03 AM