I feel all over the place. Happy one minute, crying the next. It's a little ridiculous, and difficult to manage. I'm so happy to be here, with all of the newness and food (mm, food) and gorgeous weather, and a good friend to stay with and show me around and keep me laughing. But he's leaving today for a camping trip, and so I feel sad about that. He'll be in Boston next month sometime, but that doesn't fill up the hole or make me feel any better at this moment.
So I'm on my own today, I don't know anyone else here who's in town and/or not busy with wedding stuff, and that scares me a little bit. Especially lately, I've been no good on my own. There are lots of things I'd like to do and see, and I can certainly keep myself busy, but I'm a little scared of...I'm not exactly sure what. Sadness, I guess. Bad feelings tailing me all day.
This city is a reminder, both of my recent past and potential nearby future. It's so full of meaning, it's been making the tears well since last night. I want to hold them back -- I don't want them to take over my vacation -- but I guess it's out of my control for the moment. All I can do is cry for a bit out on the couch while John and Bob sleep off last night's martinis, and then go forth for coffee and maybe morning buns from Tartine if I can find Guererro... And then I'll decide if I'd rather go to Berkeley or the Japanese Tea Garden, rather have pizza or Pakistani to eat, and so on.
I have a lot of choices to make, today and in the next couple of months. Not knowing makes me incredibly nervous. But it's also exciting.
Posted by thevieve at May 26, 2006 10:24 AMguerrero isn't too bad - just get across market from where you are. Write down (or remember) the order of the major north/south streets and you should be fine.
(from west to east)
Church - Dolores - Guerrero - Valencia - Mission
Also, don't walk down Guerrero from Market to where tartine is - it's boring. Take Valencia. Relatively flat, and better people watching. Get to 18th, hang a right, and it's one block up on the far left corner. Look for the crowd.
After eating at tartine (or after picking up a morning bun), walk up 18th street to Dolores and you'll find Dolores Park. Nice place to sit and eat in the sun, and there's also cafe right there on the corner with decent eats. Just up Dolores back toward market from there (at 16th street) is Mission Dolores. There will probably be tour buses outside. The small building has a cemetery in back where they filmed some of "Vertigo."
I should totally be a tour guide.
Posted by: Chris on May 26, 2006 11:20 AM