I was talking to my mother on the phone yesterday, and then got an email from my dad this morning, and they both told me the same thing: follow your bliss. (Yes, my parents, still hippies at heart.)
I said I would do that if I knew what it was. I think I do know, somewhere within me. But I can't quite access it yet. Or maybe I have accessed it, but I'm afraid to admit it to myself, because then what if I try and it doesn't work out? What if I fail? How crushing that would be. I think (I know) this is the wrong way to look at things, but that's the hitch. The snag. Like a cat's claw stuck fast on a tiny, stubborn thread in my favorite sweater.
I need some space to think about this. I need a break. I'm leaving for San Francisco and LA on Wednesday, and I'm planning to do things that make me happy. Laugh with friends. Stroll about. Eat eat eat. Explore. I'm hoping this break will help me see things more clearly. I won't push it, though. It'll come when it comes.
Posted by thevieve at May 22, 2006 8:58 AM