The list of things to do is so long, I can't get any of it done.
Trying to work, trying to stay calm, trying not to get sucked into a crazy spiral.
I keep getting distracted though. Wanting to connect, but not knowing how. Realizing that past connections I thought I had were never really made. Realizing that I knew so little. Realizing that I didn't really register. And that hurts, but I know it doesn't help to talk about it anymore. I don't think it was my fault, or anything to do with me. (But maybe I'm wrong, and it was, and that sharp little part keeps jabbing me and drawing blood.)
The sun is so beautiful, but I'm having a hard time enjoying it.
Posted by thevieve at May 17, 2006 12:33 PM