I've been dumping a lot of shit on people lately. They don't want it, and I don't blame them. I don't want it either. And I wonder what I expect or what I want to get out of it. Partly just to unload it from my mind a bit. Partly to get some words of reassurance in return. To know people care that my life feels like a shit cake with poo frosting right now. But I'm not really getting what I want. Seems like I don't handle this stuff the right way. I'm not sure what to do about this.
Sometimes I wish that I could just ignore stuff like this, like I did before. Don't talk about it, don't think about it. Pretend everything's just fine. But I don't really want to get to the point where I can't do anything but sleep and watch TV and don't leave the house for two weeks. So I guess this is better.
Posted by thevieve at May 15, 2006 10:52 AM