I'm not sure how I keep myself from falling apart at the seams. It feels like my skin is stretched so tight, the sutures that close all the fissures and cracks are threatening to pop. Ping, poppety, ping, in a million directions. And everything that's tied up tight will go slack and spill out over the ground.
So I hold very still and clench my jaw and close my eyes and close my mind. And it seems to work, but it hurts a lot. I'm looking for another way, one that doesn't give me headaches and stomach aches and back aches and aches of sadness, but I haven't found it yet.
Posted by thevieve at May 10, 2006 4:26 PM