I've been feeling keenly jealous of other people recently. Jealous of their cute cats, their hair cuts/colors, clothes, bodies, lifestyles, lack of inhibition, their self-awareness, healthy attitudes, cities, jobs. So many things, tangible and not. Even the fact that I'm fascinated by certain people makes me feel jealous (because I want that fascinated gaze turned toward me). The fact that I'm jealous of them makes me jealous.
It's all very perverse.
Posted by thevieve at May 6, 2006 7:36 AMYou;d be surprised at how many people feel exactly the same way you do. Even these people that you are jealous of, these people that exude everything that you wish you had, they are most likely just as insecure and wishing for things that they don't have or are not, at least to some degree. I feel exactly the way you do. I mean, not exactly, but similarly at least. I struggle with different demons, but mentally and emotionally our struggles seem to be quite similar. But remember, just because people appear happy and to be living the life is often times just a mask they wear. I know I can wear one well.
Posted by: Emily on May 6, 2006 7:56 AMYep. Yep yep.
Posted by: 'nette on May 6, 2006 9:06 PM