I feel disembodied today. Not quite all here. Disengaged. Like I've taken some Dayquil and my head is floating, bobbing above the earth. Like if I stand too long in the cold rain, my body will melt and disappear into the earth I'm so high above.
I drove to an appointment this morning and realized, after I'd gotten there and was circling the block for parking, that it had been changed to this afternoon. So I turned around and drove back the way I had come.
Disengaged, disappointed. Uninspired, unclear. De facto depersonalized.
It feels neither good nor bad. Neutral, but worth noticing. Noting.
I'd like to sleep it off instead of floating through the day. But I don't have much choice in the matter.
Self-determination, and the desire to exercise it, are such slippery things.
Posted by thevieve at May 2, 2006 11:33 AM