Tonight I bought the new Built to Spill and The Creek Drank the Cradle by Iron & Wine. Both are a little poignant for me at the moment, but I guess that's OK.
Our exchange today made me sad and anxious at first. Made me cry a little bit. But I was happy to share something with you that was relatively uncomplicated, that didn't carry too much emotional weight. They were good wishes, not much more or less. And I think maybe it made you happy too. You're welcome. I wish I could share the day with you. Thinking about that makes me feel a little empty, but not overwhelmingly so. I hope I can hold onto these feelings for a while.
I have a list of people I need to call, which I guess I've been putting off. I feel all talked out at the moment. But I'll call you soon. (Or, hey, you could beat me to it and call me first.)
I'm looking for some direction now, some goals. I need to figure out some adventures and projects that will make me happy, that I can make happen on my own. Something I'm in control of, and don't have to depend on someone else's cooperation for. Not that I've lost faith in others; I just can't depend on them to help make me happy. There are too many variables.
Posted by thevieve at April 26, 2006 8:18 PM