April 26, 2006

Something has to give

I'm not taking care of myself, and it's painfully apparent. My head is fuzzy, woolly, heavy, full of dull pain. My jaw aches and pops. My back has a million tender points, and crackle-snaps when I shift around. My legs feel full of electricity, twitchy and prickly. My sinuses feel swollen; my eyes are swollen, perpetually.

I'm not eating. I'm not sleeping. I'm drinking more than I ought to. I'm not exercising. Even though I need these things even more (or less) right now than I normally do.

Why am I so perverse. Why am I in so much pain. How do I endure. I've had my fill and then some.

Posted by thevieve at April 26, 2006 11:04 AM