Right now, I desperately want something other than work to distract me from how I'm feeling.
I want a vacation to someplace with gentle, warm breezes, peace and quiet, sandy beaches, and blue ocean.
I want something to fill the spaces left where the silly daydreams and optimistic (and stupidly unrealistic) plans used to be.
I want a home to call my own, with a garden to call my own. A place I can stay for a while, where I can get my bearings and feel settled.
I want a pet to take care of and cuddle with. Something that will adore me, without complication or complexity.
I want to feel happy and relaxed.
I want someone who will love me back, who won't want to leave me. I think that's what I want most in the world. But I think that's unlikely, so I'd better get used to it.
Posted by thevieve at April 21, 2006 9:40 AM