I want to let go and just forget about it. The hurt feelings and slights and adolescent behavior. It's not worth my time to dwell on what's past and not all that important, particularly when I've moved on and have a 100% better new thing evolving.
But then I have a dream that wakes up the hurt feelings (and wakes me up at 5 AM), and then I wonder, "Should I let go? Can I?" And I feel such a compelling desire to say my piece, because obviously it's bothering me. But then I think, what would that achieve? Would I feel better? Or would I just feel like a weirdo nincompoop? And why do things like this bother me so much anyway? And it goes round and round my head like an irritating, nauseating, not-so-fun amusement park ride. Kind of like "It's a Small World" at Disney World, it makes me want to run away screaming, but I'm stuck on that stupid little boat.
And all that thinking just makes me cranky, and doesn't get me anywhere good. So fuck it. I'll let it go. It's not worth the energy.
Posted by thevieve at January 17, 2006 10:16 AM