I feel overwhelmed on a regular basis. Too many things to do, or usually one enormous thing to do plus the usual little things, and it's like my brain and body and emotions start to overheat. The oil of confidence burns up and everything comes to a creaking, shuddering halt.
But the world doesn't come to a halt, as much as I would like it to (I Googled "vacation from my life" yesterday, and it seems that a lot of other people feel the same way). I feel like running away, abandoning my possessions and my job and, I don't know, sitting in a secluded cabin by a lake for the rest of my days. But of course that's silly. And of course I can get through the next week, though thinking beyond that--the next month, the next year, and, oh God, the next decade--whips me up into a churning tornado of panic.
So just think about the step ahead of me. Think about today and only today. Think about what's manageable. Think about all I've managed to accomplish under more difficult or similarly difficult circumstances. Think about how I have people who can help me, who want to help me. Think about the next step.
I think I can do that.
Posted by thevieve at August 23, 2005 8:53 AM