So, as I mentioned yesterday, I've been in quite a grumpy slump lately. Feeling overwhelmed is a good part of it, I think. I had so much work for a while there, and while I was busy with that so many other things piled up to the point where I felt frozen. So instead of getting my shit done I just stressed about it, and fought against my feelings. Which only made everything worse. Panicky, crazy, totally freaky. I'm still feeling overwhelmed, but I gave myself a good talking to last night as I was watching Adult Swim (Brak! The best show they show on the show shower!). And I realized, sometimes you just have to ride the wave. So I feel overwhelmed and tired and cranky, so what? I already feel crummy, why make myself feel worse by getting angry at how I feel? It sucks, but it will pass. I'll just do whatever I can do, and not beat myself up about the stuff I can't get to right now. It's not the end of the world if the carpet doesn't get vacuumed, or I don't make Christmas cards, or whatever else my crazy brain decides is a priority. Just ride the wave, and it'll get better. Thank you, Kwami Swami, for helping me see that for myself.
Enough epiphanies, time for an Advent Calendar update! Today is a cute little kitten, wearing snow pants and holding a big snowball in its paws, with a sly feline glint in its eye. It seems to have lost its mittens too.
I still don't know what to get Lukas for Christmas. If you have a good idea (that's not too expensive), please email me. And don't tell me to buy a watch fob or sell my hair, I've read that story.
Posted by thevieve at December 11, 2001 9:37 AM